Like most people (at least this is what I tell myself), my mind likes to wander, usually to very strange places. It’s amazing how many different things I can think of and eventually realize only a couple of minutes have gone by. Even though this has happened to me every single days for years, it was made quite obvious recently when I saw this quote:
“Quiet people have the loudest minds”
– Stephen Hawking
My mind is quite loud, so loud that it sometimes keeps me awake for hours on end. Most of the time it’s a pain in the ass since I don’t get enough sleep, too many “what if…”s pop into my head and its very hard to get them out. I guess this is why I watch so much TV, it helps me keep my mind quiet. Reading something right before I go to bed usually helps, but I’ve never been a big reader so that doesn’t last very long. It’s not such a big deal during the day since the “what if…”s come in quite handy at work, having a wild imagination is a good thing when you break software for a living (making the developers cry is a nice bonus).
- If I hear a song that really gets to me, it becomes what if I could sing like that… at which point I begin to picture myself in different situations where I’m singing.
- If I watch a Jackie Chan movie, then it becomes what if I could do karate like he does… at which point I begin to picture myself either being a character in a movie or some stupid situation where I would kick some ass.
Situations like these are endless, so it’s very sad when you think about all the time spent on, well, nothing. This sad feeling has got me to actually try a few of these things, but in order to keep it short I’ll just stick to the examples:
- I already know for a fact I can’t sing. I doubt a vocal coach can help me so I just keep my singing to the car.
- I tried to learn karate once, but soon found out that I do not posses the discipline required to master it.
I borrowed a guitar from a friend since I wanted to try it out before buying a guitar of my own. I was doing pretty good and really enjoying the learning experience but soon got frustrated with an issue that wouldn’t let me get to the next level, the game kept telling me I was holding the wrong fret when I clearly wasn’t. I eventually hit a wall when I was playing a song that had a note on the first fret and the game kept telling me to go higher, obviously I couldn’t…
I was told that the guitar needed to be tuned properly, I couldn’t do it myself since I’m still a newb. I didn’t want to abuse the generosity of the friend who let me borrow it so I went to Guitar Center and found a really good deal on a starter guitar. I told myself: new guitar, already tuned, I should be OK… I was proven wrong right away, which just led to more frustration. At this point I thought I was going to fail once again, but after doing some searching online I found a couple of tips that solved the issues I was having:
- Turn the volume of the guitar all the way up
- Don’t press too hard on the strings, this actually extends it a bit and produces a slightly different tone
After overcoming this small hurdle I’m back to enjoying the experience, especially with my new guitar. Now I’m totally committed to keep playing, keep my mind busy and being a step closer to becoming a more productive person.